I have been going through days of being OK maybe even happy or, almost happy and days when I can barely get through the day. I can’t tell if I am hungry or not, I am confused about all the little things and puzzled even more by larger tasks. I don’t know where to start and the list keeps piling on. People ask if I am ok, and I say yes but I don’t really know if I am ok. I feel like crying but tears don’t always come out. When tears come out it’s just a few and I feel like I have a river inside me that can’t get out.
What can I do to help myself?
I will try to set small goals. One is doing laundry. What a pain, I can do it. My next goal will be having a lunch. I have that feeling like maybe I want to eat, but I don’t know what so it’s making me not really hungry but I should eat something. I think after I eat I can go for a 10 min walk. Maybe the outside will make me feel better. In fact Ill step outside now. Walk was nice, didn’t get far but saw a neighbor and that was nice.
I would like to do some self care but noting comes to mind. I do have a hobby that I love since I started in High School so today I plan to go and do a few things in that hobby. Hopefully it will get my mind in a better place, to be happier.
So many of us are facing a struggle even if it’s within us. It’s hard to pull away and focus on the positive things, so as I sit here and write I want to remind myself to look at the good people, friends and family and the things I have and want to accomplish in my life and reflect on this being the goal and baby steps are better than no steps at all.
Sad but not sad, my mission to make baby steps toward a better future for me and my family. I wish the same for you.
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